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“Imma do the things that I want to do, I ain’t got a thing to prove to you” – weezer
“I’ll take off my clothes and it won’t be shameless ‘cause everyone knows that’s how you get famous.”
“and convince yourself its not the reason you don’t see the sun anymore.” – paramore I did so much for you. Anything you wanted me to do I would. I would loose all my self respect just to make sure that you were happy. I tried so hard to be your best friend, to be the one that you could always turn to, the one friend that was truly true, and I was that; I did anything you needed me to do and I look back on all that now and I am disgusted with myself, I cry because I had no respect for myself, I dropped it to please you. You were my best friend, I did everything for you and all the while you never asked if I was okay, if doing what you asked, what you plan was at all hurting me. It was hurting me, it filled me with regret, it still haunts me. No matter what the fuck I do it fucking haunts me and drives me insane. How could you call yourself my best friend and let me hurt myself like that to please you? Than when I tried to make you happy with something more stable… you step back, right out of my life, kicked me to the dirt, lied about me, my life. After all that I have done… I cannot believe how selfish you really are. How pathetic I let you make me. I was your doll, dress me the way you want, attach some strings and I follow every action you make me do. I hate you. Only you. You are the only person I hate. I hate you out of hurt, distrust, and regret. I should have listened but I didn’t I thought you were a diamond in the rough, I knew people talked about you, but I knew you deserved a chance, a friend… I was wrong. Very wrong. Why did you have to do that to me? Why not anyone else? I was the one that never left your side… while they did. I hate you… but I still keep pictures of you on my wall from the times before I let you take away the last bit of self respect I had. The pictures of you that lay in plain site on my ways are from when I thought you were my best friend, they are pictures from the girl that had a life before she let it all fall apart… before she had me do that to please herself.
“You’re never ready for what you have to do. You just do it and that makes you ready.” – sybil
“Even when your hope is gone move along just to make it through.”
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